Well, I had a rather terrible day on Thursday. I did not get the job I was hoping for, I had a horrible homework assignment, lost five hours of work on senior design on top of numerous other smaller but very irritating situations and a couple other bigger issues. However I spent the evening with friends, first at my Senior Design partner Jake's apartment, then at my own and Nicky came by to cheer me up. While it seems like I do not have that many true friends I have a few close real friends. My dad also gave me a nice pep talk cause my dad is awesome. It's good to remember you have people who love you after epically bad days.
Still life has been very discouraging to me lately, while there is some good I just seem to see so much bad. So many things I want, some selfish some not and yet I never seem to get anything I really want. It's been years since I ever had anything significantly good that I wanted come to me now. Don't get me wrong there have been plenty of small blessings scattered throughout that time but those big things we want and pursue that make life worth living, I never seem to get them. For instance this job I wanted, the fact I didn't get it seems to imply I can't get any job at all in my field. Also many friends and family of mine are not saved and it really makes me sad. I still seem to lack that whole evangelism talent as well so I'm not actually helping that cause much if at all, I'm probably hurting it.
Naturally life has periods of down time like this, but God lifts all his children up and one day I will be lifted up. Until then just gotta have faith, none the less it's good to vent a little.
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